Post by kiryuu on May 10, 2012 16:42:55 GMT -5
He had kept his head facing away from the man before him, his fists clenched and gritting his teeth, closing off his eyes and taking a single deep breath, in an effort to calm himself down; it was his attempt of avoiding getting physical with Orochi. After some time had passed, he had regretted of what he had said. Things were always much better when he didn't talk. People liked him better that way. As he had expected, he had received a retort from Orochi of how he had acted. He would've apologized there and then if it weren't for his difficulty of speech. His throat always felt like it didn't belong to him after he had yelled. Apparently it was an effect caused by a conflict of two different muscles, one for crying and the other for swallowing. It was odd since he never felt the urge to cry himself.
Though much to his surprise, Orochi had given him some form of praise. Though of course, Orochi's harsh words overwhelmed the praise. Kiryuu never liked it when people yelled for any reason, he just automatically assumes that they're yelling at him even when they're strangers to one another. One of the many things he hates about people in general, the constant harsh words... no wonder he loves it when everything is silent. It was the only moment he had ever felt truly at peace. A bit of time had passed since Orochi's last comment, allowing Kiryuu to calm down further and go back to his natural front. Which then he finally faced Orochi as he collected his calmness. He gave a sigh before doing so, indicating that he felt troubled for explaining what had happened.
"I apologize for acting the way I did, it was uncalled for and you may discipline me as you see fit. But before that, allow me to explain myself in a more calm way... I know that there are others whom have felt greater pain than I might ever know. But its just... how do I explain myself...? I just find it frustrating... people often say that they understand how another feels when they go through a tragedy. That things will end well... its just... its just complete bullshit.
They don't know about the exact details, or the emotions that accompany with their experiences... so I just hate it when someone thinks that they do understand. No one will ever truly understand my pain, as I won't every truly understand another's pain.
I'm sorry if it doesn't really make any sense... I'm not exactly good at conveying my own emotions through words...
Though much to his surprise, Orochi had given him some form of praise. Though of course, Orochi's harsh words overwhelmed the praise. Kiryuu never liked it when people yelled for any reason, he just automatically assumes that they're yelling at him even when they're strangers to one another. One of the many things he hates about people in general, the constant harsh words... no wonder he loves it when everything is silent. It was the only moment he had ever felt truly at peace. A bit of time had passed since Orochi's last comment, allowing Kiryuu to calm down further and go back to his natural front. Which then he finally faced Orochi as he collected his calmness. He gave a sigh before doing so, indicating that he felt troubled for explaining what had happened.
"I apologize for acting the way I did, it was uncalled for and you may discipline me as you see fit. But before that, allow me to explain myself in a more calm way... I know that there are others whom have felt greater pain than I might ever know. But its just... how do I explain myself...? I just find it frustrating... people often say that they understand how another feels when they go through a tragedy. That things will end well... its just... its just complete bullshit.
They don't know about the exact details, or the emotions that accompany with their experiences... so I just hate it when someone thinks that they do understand. No one will ever truly understand my pain, as I won't every truly understand another's pain.
I'm sorry if it doesn't really make any sense... I'm not exactly good at conveying my own emotions through words...